Shadow of the Day

Why do we run from the things we fear most
Why do we sit alone for hours, waiting, hoping?
Are we afraid to face the truth and does the truth really hurt?
Isn't the truth better than a misguided road?

My curiosity is eating me inside out, just to know what's beneath the water
The surface is not good enough,
I'm aware of that, because i'm briskly touching it with my foot.
Water is icy cold, cold enough to keep me away because I'm afraid of shiver
Dive deeper, i'm certain if i go deeper, it will only be warmer.

I really want to see the corals or embrace the fishes or perhaps just to explore beneath the sea's mystery

But I can't, not because i don't know how to swim,
I can't mainly because whenever i prepare myself, I see sharks circling around, waiting for its next meal out of me.

Its not very inviting.

But this, this thing you're doing to me, it hurts. This winter, the part where you've gone cold, it's soul hurting.
It hurts like hell.
I can't describe the pain because everytime I think about it, it feels as though someone's stabbing it with a knife. It gets even painful when you're there and I'm here and this wall has made its blind presence.

I've lost you once before, and I just don't want to lose you again as a friend.

Clearly, we don't talk anymore, we don't hang out like we always do on Friday nights, we skipped ice cream and long night chats in mamak stalls.
I miss your presence,and just being there is enough to feel alive.

What have we become? Have I miss something that I should have see with my two blind eyes?

I miss you. I still do. I know I shouldn't, but I can't help it.
I meant to tell you, but every single time when I build enough courage to talk to you,
you had this fullstop and it came crashing down on me yet again.

I wish for many things, and 1 of them is for you to be happy.
It breaks my heart to see you sad and clearly you've found happiness once again through your words. Sometimes, just sometimes, I wished it was me that you wrote about.

Well, even love unreturned has its rainbow.